Hectic life in UTAR

The life is hectic as you see.
Since I'm studying in Foundation in Science, it is predictable that every week we have reports, tests and some assignments to do as well.
It starts from week 6, 3 tests in a week, with some practical and tutorial classes and lectures, it is so tiring for me.
I encounter insomnia these few weeks, everyday I can't sleep well, sleep at late of the midnight, and wake up automatically after a few hours sleep.
It seems like I don't sleep at all.
If this situation continue, then I would say, I will die as fast as possible, although I don't expect that I will alive for a long period.
Allow me to die in a proper situation, with slim body, better skin condition, have successful career, it's okay for me that whether I have lover or not, depends.
I'm really don't know how to deal with subjects regarding to calculations such as Mathematics and Physics.
Mathematics is better a bit than Physics, but I don't understand 80% of Physics /.\

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Physics II test 1 is coming soon, I'm nervous and worry, as I really don't understand it.
Sorry, my Physics lecturer, it's my problem.
I'm still doing Physics report now, I think most of my friends have done it already and they are doing revision on Physics and Programming Concept.
What am I doing now? Ish......
Sometimes I really hate myself.
I think I am stupid, nothing I can do well, worse than handicap.
Haiz......
I can't stop blamming on myself, I need someone who always encourage me to work hard and have positive thinking.
Although I seems like a happy person, actually I'm not !
I'm emotional enough and have negative thinking.

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The only things I can do better are singing and take photos......

One of the photos that I like the most.

VocalXync Audition

准备了几天的audition，似乎搞砸了，嗯。
上课上到6pm，DDK5的冷气真的是会要了我的命，冷到不停地发抖。
上完了课，又累又饿又冷，就去了audition，只能说，我的状况真的不好。
嘛，再加上我是个很容易紧张的人，或许是我对任何事都要求苛刻，自己给自己的压力过大了，反效果了。
不过，没关系，至少我已经尽力去呈现我的歌声了。
应该没有机会继续比赛了吧，那也好啦，专心读书才是重点（明天考试啊=。=）！
第一次去试音活动，见识了不同的世面，有了不同的经验。
嗯，就把这次试音当做是大学时期的一个宝贵经验吧。
我发现，我真的很难handle好低音部分，高音还好而已，太高音又不能唱。
或许是因为去年喉咙发炎得太严重，导致声带受损了，最近睡不好，健康应该也出了问题。
下个星期慢慢开始调理保养吧。
加油啊，林丽君！
是时候回去书香世界了，Biology，爱你哟❤

知我者谓我心忧，不知者谓我何求

在这个世界上，知己这个存在是可遇不可求的。
你们找到了自己的知己了吗?
我朋友虽多，但，知己这个存在，我目前感受不到。
刚才的实验课，我对自己失望了。
就连这简单的步骤都做不好，vitagen的bacteria我没看到，cultivation of bacteria也做不好。
你还能指望你自己能把什么事情做好?
虽说人应该要有正面思想，但此时，我做不好。
请原谅我对自己的苛求，追求完美的天性...

❤City of Arva❤

City of Arva is a love story between an elf princess and a human prince.
I love the flow of the story,it is romantic as well.

Danbo~

The love story of Aurilea and Darius❤

Christmas ended, final exam is Coming !

Finally, the beloved Christmas ended.
The cruel reality is that the final exam of trimester 2 is coming, is tomorrow!
I feel no nervous but stress only.
It is possible for me to feel stress and nervous when I enter to exam hall later.
Every time I encounter these problems, I will not perform well in examination.
I hope I will not be too stress and nervous for this time as I cannot fail in any of the subjects!
If I fail in any of the subjects, I will be terminated by campus for the first time!
It cannot occur at me !
I try to do some relaxations such as dancing, singing and go out for meals this time.
Last time I was too stress until I can't breathe at night, that feeling was too terrible for me.
This time, I will not repeat the same situation anymore.
By the way, I should study harder.
I found that one of my friend, poor ong is really works very hard in studies.
He always study until he forgets to eat his meals and sleep less.
Although his lifestyle is unhealthy, but I admire his spirit and determination.
Every success comes from efforts!
You will gain more if you work harder.
If you cannot get the good result in the end, don't give up, just try harder and harder next time, then you sure can do it better! Trust yourself!

Before the end of Trimester 2, I captured some memorable photos with my lecturers, tutors and friends.
I really love photography very much❤.❤
I hope we can meet again next time.
Thanks for teaching me, my beloved lecturers, Mr. Tai Yi-Hwang, Mr. Ho Wai Yew, Miss Precilla Robert, Miss Phang Yi Ning, Miss Chan Wan Ling, Mr. Gooi Harvey, Mr. Choy Li En and so on.
I very appreciate what you all gave me, thank you.

I hope our friendships will never end❤

I hope I can handle final exam and do well in it.
Gambateh kudasai!❤

My lecturer for Biology, Mr. Tai Yi-Hwang❤

My friends❤

My lovely friends, Poor Ong, Ohh Hui, Kah Wai and Tong Tong.❤

We took photos with Miss Phang Yi Ning❤

Oh! My beloved lecturer for Organic Chemistry, she is my idol. Miss Phang is so so cute❤

We took photo with Mr. Ho Wai Yew❤

My lecturer for Biology and academic adviser❤

My tutor for Organic Chemistry, Miss Precilla❤

双子流星雨Geminid Meteor Shower 13.12.2011-17.12.2011

满怀期待的在这个12月14日的临晨12点钟，与一班朋友到了西湖（westlake）北京屋前的湖边等待着双子流星雨的出现。
在那之前，天空下了很大的雨，所以啊，临晨时的天色很不好，乌云仍然明显，也看不见那高挂的明月。
顿时，心有点冷了。
这是我第一次知道有流星的存在，想看流星，可是为什么偏偏金宝区要下雨？T^T
到了湖边，我觉得，这里似乎不太适合观看流星，原因是这里的光线有点强，附近都是路灯。
但，那也没办法，其实我对金宝地区还不是很熟悉，也不懂去哪个地点观看流星比较好。

12点多，天空漆黑一片，乌云满布。

到了临晨1时46分，我和朋友在湖边还是看不见流星，就骑着脚车到处溜达。我看到的，不是流星，而是那高挂的明月。等到临晨2点多，不等了，回到宿舍继续完成功课。

结果，我错过了流星，因为我接近临晨4点睡着了，4点多有一些流星，啊！

12月14日的晚上一直下雨，持续下了接近6个小时的雨。
1点多，雨停了，我天真地以为，我可以看见流行了。
和朋友走到非常适合观看流行的地点-Harvard旁边的死路，那里黑漆漆的，超恐怖，我们都不敢走前去，因为只有我们2个女生。
结果，又下起雨了，我们只好打消念头，返回宿舍了，唉。
但是，我还是坚持等下去，2点多入睡了，4点起身，到附近的篮球场，打算等待流星的出现。
原来，也有人跟我一样，渴望着看到流星的片刻，他们是我同科系的朋友。
可能是刚停雨不久的关系，冷风吹来，幸好我有穿外套。
把我的背包垫在地上，我躺着，慢慢地，观看着那一片星空（虽然只有几颗星星）。
啊！我看见了一颗流星，速度非常快的流星。
我本以为是我看错了，可是我的另一个朋友也看到了！她高兴得欢呼起来，我确定，我没看错，那真的是流星！
只可惜那流星的速度太快，体积太小，根本不可能拍到，以我的傻瓜相机=。=
之后，我再次看见了我人生中第一次看见的第2颗流星，真的超开心。
那种感觉，很难形容！
我许了2个愿望，希望流星能带给我好运。
早安？晚安？傻傻分不清楚了XD

我或许是朵温室里的小花

上了大学之后，我发现，我或许是朵温室里的小花，过分的被家人小心呵护着，导致我的个性有时候会像刺猬般，把自己封闭起来，不让任何危险的事物接近我。

外面的世界很危险、很残酷，有时候很冷血，很难找到人间温暖。
还是在家人身边最好了，虽然每天过着吵吵闹闹的日子，但都是无比的温暖，温暖得令我忘记了，以后在外的世界是多么的冷血无情。
上了大学，生活变得更加孤单。
少了家人，中学的朋友，来到了一个陌生人的世界。
有朋友说，我的适应能力很强，在来到大学的第一个星期，就交到了很多朋友。
是很多没错，那是因为，如果我不交新的朋友，我会觉得更孤单。

朋友是交到了，但是知心朋友能有几个呢？我真的不懂。
来到了这里，在朋友面前我都是嘻嘻哈哈，大喇喇的个性，但是没有人看得出我内心的蓝。
大学的同学在课业方面都很出色，令我真的倍感压力，但是那都是我自己的问题，谁让我的实力不足。
实力不足，何为竞争？何为相提并论？别自不量力了好吗？

有时候压力压得让我快断气了，想找人聊一聊，却发现，手机里的号码竟没有我第一时间想找的人。
我太软弱了，所以我经常告诉自己要坚强，要自立独立。
或许我坚强太久，不流泪，某一天会崩溃瓦解。
这里没有让我依靠的肩膀，谈心的朋友，亦是我心里的蓝令我看不见身边的色彩......

我习惯把所有事都自己扛，把自己累得喘不过气，有时候一天都睡不到几个小时。
我的付出，又有谁真的看到，没有人对我说：“你其实很棒！”或是“你的辛苦，我们都看得见。”
只有妈妈会这样的跟我说吧。
我开始想念我的避风港，我的家了。
流回去的眼泪，终于流出来了。

我好累，真的好累......